If I Disappear

Know that if I disappear
It won't be a homicide
Or even in my worst dreams
Nightmares personified 
It wouldn't be from failure
And it wouldn't be from fate 
It wouldn't be from suicide or filicide or hate 

If I disappear...If I vanish like the wind 
It wouldn't be from flying free
But I'm keeping that one pinned 
It wouldn't be me getting lost 
For lost I've always been 
In this world where getting by
We wear a mask to play pretend 

No, just know that if I disappear
I disappeared with purpose
Out into the wild from the concrete maze and circus 
To reinvent this sunken soul
To one not quite as worthless 
And show you something different 
When I finally resurface