Being selfish is so hard to figure out

I wait alone only with medication to comfort my wounded soul. Why do we strive for another partner that doesn't make us shine but overwhelms us with frustrated panting. We beg for them and in return we receive indifference. Why not let someone in that wants us and enjoys us. Why do we strive for another that doesn't want us. We should put aside natural passion and accept that we need love and theirs isn't worth crying futile tears for. Love in vain is never worth the long hours that we put in for something that is doomed. Whether its forever gone or has shimmer we still need to stand strong alone and prosper in all our beauty. Someone out there is meant for us and if that person doesn't come along and receive our message then at least we are at peace with who we are. We know moving forward is about being selfish and not worrying about out of control situations but why do we still sit and hope for another that is perfectly fine without us. We have to move though life and hold hands with others that truly like the person we are and completely drop others we want to make see. If they dont see what we have to offer someone else will. Being selfish is so hard to figure out.