Depersonalization

Anger and frustration and constant manipulation, 

Echoing in my mind, pulsing day and night.

Fed up with all the stress and trying to put it to rest.

Hearing the lies inside that are refusing to let me die.

Anxiety and other emotions lead to frequent convulsions.

There's pain from the venomous foam;

Must make sure it isn't shown.

I have no clue why I can't just die.

Try to soothe myself with a vampire's lullaby.

Aching for this to be over just to find it passing slower,

Squeezing the life out of me and causing me to bleed,

Ripping at my flesh and putting me to it's test.

I offer my beseeching pleas for this malicious entity to cease.

And in return,

Refusal to be free from this mind numbing penalty!

My insides ripping out while the red of wrath swarms 'round.

Emotionally scarred as if life wasn't already hard.

The trials and tribulations begin to eat at my patience,

The fire of disgrace engulfs my being, forbidding me from seeing

Why life is really worth living, and all that I had been missing.

It's created a living hell where my soul is sentenced to dwell.

I'm ever so slowly dying, and yet I'm worthlessly trying

To escape this prison where I reside before I finally

Commit suicide.