I see you so clearly as I lay in my bed,
You’ve told me you are fine as you have kissed my bowed head,
I have raced to reach you and can’t always get near,
I have walked on glass and I have wondered with fear.
We have met in your house, in the theatre, outdoors,
You have seen all our babies and all the in-laws.
You told me you’re proud, which really pulled on my heart,
You have told me my family is off to a great start.
At times we have spoken, and others your just there,
But that’s all I needed to know you still care.
Sometimes I wake and try to return,
And others I feel I had something to learn.
You have appeared in places with family and friends,
Just to show me that your life never ends.
I know that you are happy and there is no more fight,
I know this because Grandad is holding you tight.
By morning I can’t wait to tell others you came,
But when I start it’s not quite the same.
There is times when I am down you still make me feel tall,
And I often believe I am not dreaming at all.
I was told “it gets easier” by all that could tell,
I wish easy would start, because it still hurts me like hell!
I miss you so much, you got your wings and you are beaming,
But to me you are still Grandma so I will never stop dreaming.