Fractured Crystal

My mind has become fragile.

Intruding thoughts beguile. 

Years of sadness has taken its' toll.

It has drained the joy from my soul.

Nervous breakdowns are a journey through hell.

How many times will I come back from

them I can not tell.

They've  broken neuron connections.

Eyes filled with horror stare back at me 

upon reflection.

Insanity is knocking at the door.

Another break down I could not endure.

Voices whisper lies of damnation.

Horrific becomes my imagination. 

Strangers ridicule and cast judgment

without lips of movement.

Constant scrutinizing eyes watch

my every move.

​They never approve. 

Unearthly beings lurk in the shadows

anxiously waiting to capture my soul.

What they will do with it I hope not to know.

My pleading words land on deaf ears.

No mercy for remorseful tears.

Ruthless creatures penetrate my thoughts

and fill my mind with their heinous plots. 

Terrified I'm momentarily lost.

Exhausted my whole being pays the cost. 

Fear chisels at the fractured crystal that has

become my brain.

I struggle to not be driven insane.

To manage mental illness while 

in a state of constant bereavement

is unbelievable torment.