GOD'S STRANGE GAME!

Sitting here reflecting on life
How it’s been dealt to me
With blows and sadness
It made me say things that sent many scattering
Sidelining my broad sense of openness
Comrades shooed away by changes in friendships.
Some can’t forget my tart, rash tongue, "My God, you have no filter!"
One by one they faded away like ghosts.
I was always asking why, but knew the reasons of the deluge
On down the day, events unfolded
Tickling through to the times
I knew why it was “going down”
Understanding through God
What they thought I stated was not true
Though many still shied from me?
Even the ones I used to seek out to chat and banter with
The rumor mill conked me on the head
It still comes back to haunt
They floated by like the dead, no longer flanking my side
Non-forgiveness isn’t a virtue, even back then
My soul was down, my mind wondered if they’d just let what I said pass into oblivion
I think not (they didn't)
Remembering running back to my bower, tears ‘a flowin’
Down feeling, cursed in my lifestyle
Then God shines and shows me something
I prayed to the Lord giving him thanks
For all the good and even the bad that’s come my way
My life experience shows a kind sunny slant, even if it is sad in the end
For all of it, I became glad
The snowball looming large and cold
But not one day yielded the moment of their melting hardened hearts to be as they were
Liquid, languid, soft and forgiving, no more
I did cope and life went on, even though to this day they may think I'm a con