something about the holidays that strikes that pain its really so damn hard to keep sane. its another year without you near another year without someone dear. another holiday you wish you didnt have to be outside looking in. im thankful dont get me wrong gods blessed me in more ways than one. but sometimes i miss something i never truly had feeling empty it can be quite sad. truth is when you dont have many its hard to feel whole you look around and you start to feel low. its people gathering by the hand full laughing and sharing that joy no one else can fathom when they arent alone. there is so much beauty during this time but lord there is so much loniless to. i havve a beautiful daughter she is my family for her i would do anything gladly.my only wish is to make her see that im forever her rock that she's got me. it's emotional cuz lord i wish i could give her more than all of me. im fortunate for her love what i would be without her i already know. i hope my angels come visit from up above cuz this season is rough without their love. trying to stay strong trying to hold on to another year without you near.