I Created

I live in a world that you can’t see
Because it’s a world I created, and I only created me
It’s sometimes a lonely world
As there’s no one else, and I’m the only girl
You see, I created the pain I feel
Because it’s the only way it feels so… real
I created the distance I need to be free
By not letting anyone close to me
But wait, I forgot, there is no one else in this world
I’m sometimes crazy, being such a lonely girl
I lurk in the shadows of the light
Because I play tricks on my own mind, so I stay bright
But it doesn’t matter, because I created nothing more
Than what I see, and that’s only me, crying on the dirty floor
This world I speak of, comes from no galaxy or milky way
It’s just something my brain created, so all the voices stay away
I belong in a world with solitude
There’s no one around, and I still have a foul attitude
I don’t know what it’s like to be happy, I created a world of sadness
No one to talk to, I’m getting closer to insanity and madness
Where will I end up? Standing on this corner with an empty cup
Am I really alone? Is there something wrong within my brain
Where is this going? Where am I going I’m on a one way ticket train
I created a world where there’s nothing to fear
But the thought of being so far, yet being so near
To a heart that’s forever broken, to a frog that’s always croaking
To a world I created, if only I could turn back the time, I’d recreate
This world no one else can see, because it’s too lonely just being me

Stephanie Davis
May 2021