Makes me wonder

Belittled by the thoughts in my mind

Reminding me of who I was and not basking in who I am

Makes me wonder if I am not only capable of moving on but willing to

Kept captive in the whispers of the past

I see nothing more than then and there and that bothers me

I wonder if I will be okay with my here and now

I speed quickly to nowhere and as I blink

Tears quickly fill my eyes, its nothing really but speed I'm travelling at

I am distant from myself but I can feel touch and can't run away from the fear and pain I feel

Makes me wonder if I will be okay

I want to smile that's all

And wonder what pain feels like from a happier, peaceful perpective