Outsider

I am in no way
Perfect
I am in no way
The daughter you want

I don't know how to be
The perfect child
The perfect sister
Or just the perfect person

I am not strong enough
To fake a smile
Grab a glass of wine
And act like I have my life
Together

I am not what you want
I have a lot of flaws
I am not your blood
Maybe that's my biggest one

I wish for you to care
To take the chance 
To get to know me
For who I am

So with every act
That you do care
I just smile
Go along with it
Play your game

But inside I know
I do not belong
Where I want to be

Your lives are different
I don't belong in your rich world
Your cheap, is my expensive
Your fun, is my despise

I do not see the world like you
I have been in another life
I have struggled on the ground
I have been all alone

You may be the mother who chose me
Who saved me
A headstrong woman
Proud of every child she has

But I was forced in a house of pain
Now the girl I am
Is not the girl you want
Cause I can't see the world like you

So I will always
Stay an outsider
To you

- CrystalSoulySR -