Regret

The look on your face, the smile you had from ear to ear half asleep 
The mumbles, " daddy" while still weak
Waking up to that great be hug, the tears rolling down
I just got out of jail, you thought I was working out of town
You would stick up for me, that started when you were two
You were being daddy , while I was being you
Well daddy's proud and fortunate that you are my son
Time for daddy to be daddy and time for you to have fun
Now I have to lead by example, the role model you need 
Everyone lost faith, but you believed
I blamed mommy for my life being ruined, I didn't understand 
I gave her everything , unconditionally,no demands
She was perfection  in my eyes, impossible to do no wrong    
My rock and now she was gone 
Lost and left alone
What's my purpose?,yet to be known 
I thought she gave up on me, But I was far from right
Mommy actually loved me and I hated her out of spite
I was so blind, but she already had a vision 
I hated her for making the right decision