THE SECRETE LIFE OF HATE!!

THE SECRETE LIFE OF HATE!!
I'm smiling on the outside that everyone can see
But dying on the inside as this life just isn't me
I'm tired of just thinking and want to get out of this game
but this stupid silent life I live 
causes noting but hate and pain
living this silent life of mine is a struggle everyday
trying to keep myself together
But slowly fading away
I feel my heart just racing and try to stop this pain
but this silly silent life I live is now just not a game
my silent life I live is eating me up inside
it's taken so much away from me 
and most of all my pride
this silent life I'm living is slowly tearing me apart
from a silly little game I played 
that wasn't very smart
the silent little life I live
They call it mr ice
you will only need to take it once and find it very nice
as it takes all your pain away 
When you roll that dice
you start to love your friendship with u and mr ice
not realizing his destroying you trying to take your life
you try to end your friendship and try and walk away
but now mr ice is angry 
he makes your body pay
he gives you aches and pains 
that just don't go away
He trys to makes you sick and doesn't even care
he really wasn't your friend
He was only really there
you try to ease your pain and stay away from him
But dear old mr ice always seems to win
His now giving you the sweats and chills all down ur spine 
you no u need mr ice only one more time
u start back up as friends and continue to play that game
mr ice is happy his feeling just the same 
Your back into your old tricks now with your crazy silent life 
Why mr ice is destroying you 
without even thinking twice
my head just starts to think what am I going to do
to change my silent life 
to live as one not two
I'm screaming out for help 
But no one can hear me yell
as I live this silent life 
Noone can ever tell 
I have a beauitfull daughter that everyone can see
who is trying to understand what's going on with me
And living this silent life just wasn't ment to be
I love her with all my heart and hope that she will see
I don't want her to follow in my footprints 
and end up just like me
I will do everything I can to teach her wrong from right
as I never want my little girl to face this painfull fight
She will always be my little girl
I will fight for to I die
and no one can take that away from me not even if they try
I have an amazing fiancé that has really changed my life
he now understands my struggle
with dear old mr ice
his now willing to help me in everyway he can
that's why I love him so much
and love that his my man 
we tell each other secrets and talk about our life 
I never wanted to hide this 
My silly silent life
now I have come out and told him 
His still standing by myside
my silly silent life I didn't want to hide
he really is my best friend 
and I hope that doesn't change
as that would take my life away
And cause me to much pain
I want to try and stop 
Playing this silly game
I want to get to the end to take away my pain
I'm ganna try my hardest each and everyday
to try and stop this silly game to get me on my way
this silent life I live is really about to stop
Im Going to get all the help I need 
to make it to the top
To try my hardest every day 
with out even thinking twice
To fight this silly addiction they call mr ice!!!