sick

I'm feeling stuck,

a twisting in the gut,

helpless and dazed,

adrift in so many ways,

so many things I wanted,

just out of my grasp,

I reached and fell so far short,

now there's nothing, nothing to hold onto

I am trapped and alone,

walking in a lie,

trying to get by,

swallowed whole by my failure and fear,

sick and afraid,

waiting and wanting so much more

I scream, but no one hears

because there is no one here