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Sleep Walking Lover

Sleep Walking Lover

You may not understand me
Walking around in dramatic calamity
With my eyes wide shut

I wipe back recycled tears, 
Of repeated insecurities 
Haunting memories
Flying with broken gossamer wings
My own painted butterfly of fears

I am your sleep walking lover
Dreaming of you in brilliant blues
But staying under my cover

I keep running into emotional walls
That I cannot break down
After the way he loved me
I wander around half asleep 
Where pain rains, soaking through 

The eyes on my heart see you
But keep distance, feigned resistance
Afraid passion's play could kill me

In love's lull, so lost and lonely
You seem to be everything I need
But you must first turn this around
Please, help me out of this dream
So I can really touch and love you

We could heal brokenness in each other
But with nightmare's frozen toes
I remain your sleep walking lover
 

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Cherie Leigh

Hi Randy. Thank you so much. I am honored you read my poem and took the time to comment. I think sometimes in life we hold ourselves back from experiencing life and love from past experiences that brought pain. That fear can be gripping and leave one in a limbo of dream and reality.  Bless you. xo ;) 

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Greg Etsell

wonderful poem 
Cherie my 
fav line is
my own painted butterfly of fears 
such a woundful line 
love and hugs xxoo

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Cherie Leigh

Hi Greg. Thank you!  You pointed out the line in my poem that took me the longest to get right...I changed it so many times before leaving it the way it is now, so I am glad it was a favorite line for you. It makes taking time to tweak it worthwhile. I always appreciate your support and kind comments. Thank you. xo Love n Hugs

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Marion Price

I love this one Cherie, it is complex and emotional, both a plea and a warning...pinned ūüíē

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Cherie Leigh

Hi Marion. Thank you!  You got it exactly right that it is an emotional plea and warning too. I have a lot of healing to do in my own life, and I don't understand myself right now....lol.  How can I expect anyone else to? I do know I am a passionate person in spirit, and have a lot of love to give, and want the chance to sort through my pain and wake up ready to move forward. I am honored you pinned this one. Bless you. xo ;) ((((hugs))))) 

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Being Me

Oh, if only love followed a true and smooth path. If only happy ever after WAS actually a "thing"... then we would not be so "broken", not through heartache anyway. But love is never a smooth path. It is rocky and it is treacherous but oh, oh the scenery is to die for along the way. How many times, though, do we pick ourselves up from the bottom of that rock strewn mountain only to climb again? As many as it takes!  Is that scenery ever what it seems?  We live in hope and take the chance! When the faintest whiff of love comes our way we must brush all our fears aside and seize the moment. Who knows, this time that glorious scenery maybe for real. Fear has no place to hold us back... and yet it does, constantly.

My dear friend, you've written another first class poem on romantic love and the promises that hold us hostage to it forever.
Hugs x

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Cherie Leigh

Hi Tina. You summed up love's journey well. I think that fear definitely holds us back, but our human instinct is to want to be loved and to seek that which eludes us.  Hurt from the past can be a huge barrier to trust again and jump in and take a chance.  I like how you described romantic love as being held hostage....But sometimes we just don't seem to mind...lol. Thank you for your valued comments and views. Love n Hugs xo ;)

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Flower Girl

Hey Cherie......luv it luv it.....luvs pain pleading to be rescued......by one who you know can save you..........from night mare to dream come true......,beautiful mix of brokenness and healing.......outstanding ink......purple luv & hugs xo :)

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Cherie Leigh

Hey there dear girlfriend! Thank you! You know me so well, the hell I have been through, and my insecurities to love again. You sum up well that brokenness and road back to healing and being open to love. I am so glad you loved it and get me. I love you!  ((((hugs)))) xo

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John Loopstra

Indeed a great write - in my case not apllicable to 'love lost' but to the lost twin... I totally feel

[...]
I wipe back recycled tears, 
Of repeated insecurities 
Haunting memories
Flying with broken gossamer wings
My own painted butterfly of fears
[...]

Keep going

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Cherie Leigh

Hi  John. Thank you. I am sorry for your loss of a twin...That must be an incredible void. I can only imagine.  Any kind of loss can leave one lost and needing to feel secure again in life and love how to move forward.  Thank you for reading and your support. xo ;)  

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