Missing You.

'm finding it so hard to move on,

Every single part of me is telling me it's wrong?! 

I miss your smile, your laugh, your face, 
The way we used to talk & embrace. 
It's sad because I love you, 
We just lost our way, 
I wish that things were different, Every single day! 

I cry myself to sleep at night, 
I cry when I awake, 
I cry that us apart is our biggest mistake to date. 
How is any of this right when it hurts so much, 
And every inch of me is longing for your touch?
I never thought I'd see the day, 
I'd find someone like you,
Someone that let's me be myself, through & through! 

The simple fact is, I miss you Smiler Smart, 
And no other could ever steal my heart. 
I feel I'm being selfish, by sending this to you,
But I sincerely don't know what else to do? 
I'm crying as I write this, 
I drop down to my feet, 
I grip my chest & hold my heart because I feel so weak. 
Every love story is beautiful, but ours is my favourite,
And no amount of stress or fall outs can ever change it! 

I'm sorry for all the heartache & pain I've caused,
I'm sorry for the day I told you I was no longer yours,
I was trying to do right by both of us, by opening new doors. 
I know I never showed it, 
But I'd have loved to have become your wife, 
Excited about making plans for our future life. 

When I climb into bed at night, Wishing you were there,
I lay alone & just stare. 
I often go to speak to you, 
But when I turn around, 
It's true that you are nowhere to be found :( 
Everything I see or do, 
Reminds me of you, 
And all the silly little things you used to do. 
I miss your sense of humour, 
I miss your snuggles too, 
And when I think of how you used to look at me I feel so blue. 

I thought that I was lost before, 
But now doesn't even compare,
All I feel on top of that, 
Is in complete despair. 
I don't know how we got here, 
I'm scared to let you go,
I love you more than anyone you'll ever know. 

I think with all the arguments, 
My world began to close,
It made it practically impossible to give you love that shows,
Just how very important you are to me,
So I felt the only thing left to do, 
was to set you free. 

I wear your pyjamas to bed at night, 
In the hope to feel you near, 
But all this ever manages to do, 
Is bring more tears. 
I think we took for granted, 
The special bond we had, 
Spending far to much time dwelling & feeling mad.

Your the only person I ever let into my crazy world & you never judged me,
If anything you never made me feel you was above me,
It takes a strong willed person to keep pushing through,
The only one to do that is you. 

Every time the house phone rings I freeze,
In my mind I scream 'let this be Jo, please?!!!'
I miss the way you'd call me 'baby' & kiss my face,
The way that you'd made love to me & the way your kisses taste. 

With all this said, I will leave it on this note ....

Remember that I love you, 
That much has stayed, 
I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart for how I've behaved. 
I hope that you are ok, 
That your heart is on the mend, 
I will always love you, 
My very bestest friend. 

S.hes
M.y
I.deal
L.ady
E.ver
R.are (one of a kind)