Staying Alive

I can feel my happiness wasting away, The struggle I feel day after day, Mentally ill my brain is unstable, To do daily tasks I don't feel able, Anger & sadness my only expression, As I secretly fight severe depression, I don't understand why am I sad, I can't comprehend why I'm so mad, Surrounded by loved ones I have family, Who'll support me forever unconditionally, With so much to live for I just want to die, Outside I am laughing while inside  I cry, I'm so ungrateful I should appreciate, I should be singing my life is great, While others are starving lonely & homeless, I am looked after no reasons to stress, I tell myself this over & over again, Though my life I still want to end, But I realise the pain this would cause others, My children, my husband, my sisters and Mother, I must keep this hidden deep down inside, I must live my life knowing I've tried, No one can know I feel these emotions, It's the least I can do for my families devotion, Day after day I will find some way, To win this battle alive I will stay.