Poem -


Just want to dull
my mind but
wake it up at the 
same time

open a window

Feel something that
isn't just heaviness
in my chest and
arms and head

drink and smoke 

Haven’t eaten for
days overslept
under covers 
stretching out the
Aches and pains

hands shaking

Bored scared dared
myself to get up 
everyone happier
against me their 
lives shadowing mine

selfish uncaring 
scared of feeling 
Everyone is a 
fucking alien

Soon it’ll be over