Tomorrow

Standing under the moonlight so bright and hollow
Watching the waves as I release my inner sorrow
Living today like it's my last day, not promised for tomorrow
How can I live and die at the same time? 
The wind is flowing right through me, like my spirit isn’t even mine
I look to my right and all I can see is a halo reaching for me
I look to my left and all I can see is a pitchfork dancing for me
But I can’t choose, I’m not deserving of either, just go away, leave me to be!
So I break my vision within the waves, I turn and start running
I can’t see straight, my vision starts funneling
I trip and fall, rolling down a hill veering into a world of tunneling
How did I end up here? It’s so confusing
My tears flowing from my eyes show’s to you my life isn’t amusing
As I lay down to go to sleep, I’m forced with what awakens me at night
It’s the shadow of someone I’m not sure of anymore, why is the shadow so bright
I fight myself through out the night to redeem myself, but who is watching me
Someone who claims to be me, but I don’t remember ever being… me
I’ve just fallen asleep and the sun is shining ever so full
It’s time to wake up and I’m hurting and bruised, a night so dull
Where did I go? What did I get into? Why am I bleeding?
As I look down and see the blood through my white shirt, I’m finally succeeding
I’m succeeding at finally feeling something more than pain
I’m realizing there’s a tomorrow and I’ve got so much more to gain
As I sit on my porch, under the sunset
I think to myself, “what was so bad in life that I had to forget?”
I guess I’ll never know, I’m just excited to see another tomorrow!

Stephanie Davis
May 2021