unspoken words

Just ugh.... I remember everything. Every word spoken to me. Every word I see. The feelings that come from it. The hope... Happiness.... The sadness.. The tears that have came and went. The tears i hold in that still spill out. The ones now that won't come. The barking of the heart. The knots in my tummy. Unsaid words I hide and keep to myself. In fear what people or person will feel or say..... If only I could tell my world. Exactly  what I  need to say about what barks my heart. I can't put the words to it. I wish my world would understand without my worlds. To have no questions about. Just help fix the brokenness. The ache hurts and sends me in a downwards spiral to a darkness. I want, I need them unspoken words.