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Waiting to Laugh

Waiting to Laugh

Perhaps it’s the centrifugal force of pain
That makes me divorce myself from the world
In its chronic reign of vain values and conceptions
I try to climb the life-giving, divine vine 
Leading up into love’s alluring levels of Heaven
As if I may have left my spirit there long ago
Maybe, I am just slow at acclimating to the flesh 
Where here, down below, we can only do our best
Clumsy in our attempts to understand affections
Like our Creator does with grace and perfect taste
Someday, with haste, I hope to fly with wings of wisdom
To learn why in this lifetime I always seem to yearn
Feeling unfulfilled with the selfish thrills I view
Waiting for useful cue that will whisk it all away
That day, when I will not feel like an alien anymore
And stand on God’s mountain with righteous staff
Then, with humble heart and dear renewed spirit
In His powerful presence, I may simply laugh
 

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A Lonely Journey

Hey Cheerie, 
I was just leaving work, and didn't have much of a chance to get on here today, but I'm so glad I stopped in quick to see this piece of artwork. 
Beautiful writing, my friend, as always. Very thought provoking, and spiritual. 
But, you know, from knowing you on here, I find you to be a person who God would be so incredibly proud of, and I think He would absolutely love your view of the world. You should be proud of the person you are. You see the world as it should be, and you make it so much more beautiful with your presence here. Keep seeing it that way, and you will see God's beauty on Earth, as we see His beauty in you...and you'll laugh. 
Gorgeous write, all my prayers. 
Love, 
Matthew. 

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Cherie Sumner-Taylor

Hi Matthew.  I am so touched by your words....Thank you!  ;)  I have found that if I focus on the things that show God in this world, it is less painful than relying on what the world shows me.  I love nature and beauty and all things that show love....and the rest seems so unimportant that does not reflect God's values.  I feel so alien in this world sometimes, and want to understand why I feel so far from home here.  You are so dear, Matthew, and add to that beauty in this world that is there..  You are such a good friend to always see me for me...Thank you.  I appreciate the prayers...Much Love, Cheerie ;)

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Marion Price

I so so so identify with this Cherie, I felt like this for so many years, I still fight it...these words for me are perfect in every way and you have written them with such care and emotion...excellent and pinned. 💕

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Cherie Sumner-Taylor

Hi Marion.  I feel so blessed by your words.  Thank you.  It is nice to know that there are others who understand how I feel.  I feel so misunderstood for just wanting to find those things in life that show love and not hurt.  I am honored that you pinned this and can relate to what I say.  Thank you so much.  I appreciate that you take time to reflect on what I write.  Bless you.  xo Love n Hugs, ;) 

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Marion Price

It's that word Cherie...alien...that is what I feel, in my good days it's not so bad but in my bad days I want to go home....home??  I am home!!but that is what I feel too, a yearning. I find so much of the world trivial wrong and painful ...so yes, I truly understand what you are saying. Blessings to you my friend 💕

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Cherie Sumner-Taylor

You just summed up exactly my intention for this write...the feeling of being in an environment I do not understand.  I have always felt like a misfit...wondering why I have this yearning to be somewhere else than this place I was born into...seeing the pain and turmoil...witnessing horrific actions that I do not understand.  I cling to what feels like love and benevolent  places of safety....rare and beautiful glimpses in this life that God is still present.  The values and morals of this world really dishearten me....and It feels like a lonely place to me to live here.  Thanks, Marion, for really understanding the emotions behind this.  that means a lot to me. xo ;)     

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Marion Price

I too am glad to find others also feel this, don't worry Cherie, you are certainly not alone. I think you deal with it better in that you look for the good, bless you, I don't, I get flooded with the bad, it's like I feel way too much ...especially with helpless animals, I feel tuned into the suffering...and it floors me. It's bizarre and makes me dislike this world and people so much, I struggle to be happy most of the time. God, I'm rambling, you are a lovely empathetic person Cherie, keep being as lovely as you are ...and one day....we shall return home.💕

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Cherie Sumner-Taylor

We are so alike in many ways it seems, Marion..I too am very sympathetic to animal causes....and I feel the suffering of others and take it to heart.  It is easy to feel bitterness when you see such pain at the hand of mankind.  Those who care need to stand strong to show the world the presence of benevolence.  Thanks for being the sensitive soul you are Marion.  ;)

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Johnathan Kavanaugh

I like the line maybe im just slow at acclimating to the flesh... And the mention of the staff i love the staff 

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Cherie Sumner-Taylor

Hi Johnathan.  Thank you!  ;)  I appreciate you telling me what lines spoke to you and they were pretty important lines for me in what I was trying to convey with how living in the system of this world is hard....and the staff representational of finally standing in God's will and sanctity.  Thank you for taking time to read and ocmment. xo ;)

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Larry Ran

My Dear Cherie,

Another beautiful poem about the glorious arrival to God's Kingdom.

I ascend to the Holy Firmament
God holds out His sacred staff
I am filled with eternal happiness
And my spirit filled with laugh

All my love,
Larry xxx

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Cherie Sumner-Taylor

Hi Larry!  ;)  Great summation, once again of my work...Happiness and a sense of joy and peace comes when realizing if we look up to Heaven instead of to the things of this world, that is where it is found.....Bless you for your valued verses.  Love n Hugs, ;)

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Tony Taylor

It is a powerfully motivating factor to feel divorced from that which you personally/morally find to be wanting...... in this world of complicated values and struggles to define one's own religious and spiritual value systems it becomes almost easy to write/express oneself in terms righteous perfection..... and you certainly do that better than most..... and with a powerful faith that helps others to appreciate your efforts grandiosely!!......GREAT stuff love....... your ability to wield words shines here!!........ Lots of Love sweetheart!!...... kisses!!........T xo.  : )

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Cherie Sumner-Taylor

Hi T....It is a very confusing and divisive world we live in that is hard to get away from its influence...But I always go to that scripture that says to look to the things of Heaven and not below...for that is where we find truth and the true values to live.  The sermon at church today made me think of this as well.  He talked about not living like the rest of the world and being a witness of love....for we should influence the world, not the other way around.  Thank you for understanding my firm faith and spiritual value system of thinking. Love n Hugs, C  ;) xo 

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