Who Am I

Personally and honestly I don't know. I can go on and on and put on a show. But that won't be the real me. It'll be like looking in a mirror but blurry to see. Am I straight am I gay what do I believe is the right way. I use to think I was smart and quick witted . Now  I'll I worry about is when Imma hit it. I know deep down inside I have a little. But the way I tried to get it out is not right all I do is taint. Walking around like I'm ready to explode. I people, my family, and friends walking on their toes. I cry everyday for no apparent reason. My moods change like clockwork or you can say the seasons. People say they see potential, coming from the mouths of people with money and their credentials. I want to know my calling and what I'm really here for. Just to find out I'll beg on my knees with my head to the floor. So the answer to your question of who I am. I'm a lost soul with no guidance and  set to be damned.