Yet Again

The feeling

Haunts me

Time and time again

I sense it as it’s coming

Like a scent upon the wind

Like wind across the predator

Wafts out to warn the prey

So likewise all I know and feel

Screams ‘turn and run away’

But something deep in side me

In a way I can’t explain

Finds pleasure in the desecration

Need inside the pain

So mind and heart and faculty

Drink of the traitor’s blood

And render my will helpless

Like a reed against the flood

Then yet again I falter

For I now become as they

The predator has full control

I want to be the prey