I don’t know what to say. I know that I want to say something. I want it to get out of me somehow. So far I’ve only been able to cry. There are so many words that I could use but none really encompass it completely. Empty. Sad. Angry. Confused. Tired. No, exhausted. Scared. Alone. Pain. Fear. Detached. I can’t trust myself. Every time things start to change or look brighter, it creeps in. It never really leaves. I can’t escape myself and that is the most painful thing I have realised.