A bad dream... hoping for a better world.

You can look for miles and hope you know the right people, you can look for miles and hope you are worth the time of the people around you and feel like you mean nothing. What separates me from anyone is  passion, is my love for others. I'm that person who could have a whole day planned and I'd drop it in an instant if I needed to. When I'm ill, I do what I can to drag myself out of bed, if new things come up, I reschedule the planned activities or  I say you know what, these new things can wait. I don't think anyone really knows me, I don't think anyone understands me. A year of pain caused by one person and it gets to me, it kills me and it makes it so hard to trust people but I do it because when it comes down to it, love rises above it all. I won't say I'm better than anyone and sure as hell am as good as everyone else. Watch as people come on by, they will do what it takes to stop me and it still isn't enough. Do I trust anyone anymore, I don't know because that trust leads to something that isn't me. Don't trust too much nor too little. Pain. Pain. Pain.Pain.Pain. The best part about pain is as much as it hurts it makes me laugh, people ask how can you laugh and I just continue to laugh. I ask "where have you been?" and despite knowing they always asked "what do you mean" and I tell them, "Do you not see the pain I go through everyday? Do you not see the exhaustion and that I have had enough. Do you not understand that enough is enough, so either stay or leave because you don't get to treat me like a roller coaster. You don't get to use me when your looking for some fun because you cannot find it somewhere else, I'm done. I want to be more but as soon as a new option opens up, I become the last" and they once again ask, "what do you mean?". Look at the world we live in, suicidal thoughts everyday, broken minds everyday, fighting everyday, falling everyday... don't you get it!? It is everyday. Never a break, it never stops. There used to be a time it was people over games, people over TV shows, people over phones and now it's all of that over people. I cried, inside I'm dying, I tell you I'm holding on, but it's everyone holding me back, we depend on one another, that's what we are as humans, and if you think anything other than that, then you need to rethink, it's impossible to survive alone. We need to talk to one another, we need to help one another, a broken man without people is just broken, but a broken man with people is a person who is healing. Put away the constant time outs, put away the phones when you are out with your friends, put away the TV show because all of this, it is only doing one thing, it's leaving those who suffer in reality, and those who are fine in virtuality. For this world to be worth it, we need to come back together as one.