I want to be happy

Everyday I just feel like crying. I feel like there is no point of me trying if I'm not getting anywhere. I have always been in the same place for a long time Example everyone has finished the race and I am still at the starting line. I would think about a lot of things that make me cry like I  have always wanted to learn how to drive I am now 18 and still can't drive. I don't have a phone really want one so bad Everyone around me I know have one and I don't. I Hate when I'm told I'm going to get something or something going to happen but then I get nothing. I don't have any friends or a best friend the ones I did had I don't wanna want to talk to them anymore because their fake. I want a job so I can have money in my pocket . I just wanna break the cycle. I am tired of getting my hopes up so high and I don't get what I wanted or I get nothing but a broken heart. I just feel like giving up on trying to be happy.I have a lot of broken dreams. It hurts to know that you didn't get what you wanted I would cry because I try and try and still get nothing. I make the same wish on my birthday every year and that wish is to be happy. I just want to be happy. I feel like my mom doesn't care or my sister every time I try to talk to my sister it like she doesn't care she would get mad and say I am always talking about the same stuff. My other sister would always say to me you just want people to feel bad about you and they don't care. Everyday I act like everything okays but really It's not. Everyday when I'm at school I put a smile on my face but really I'm sad. Could someone please give me some advice please and thank you.