If we had met sooner....

I had a dream I met you first.
How I'm still not sure, but I know that we were happy.
Just as happy as we are now.
Somehow we still had the boys, and we also had our own child.
She had my eyes and your smile.
She had dark hair like yours but was pale like me.
We were all at the park, and it was getting dark.
"Swing me higher, Daddy!" she called to you. 
It was getting late, and tomorrow was a big day.
Business was booming, our dreams were on the way.
We had to take care of it now, before you went away.
Deployment was calling you far over seas.
You had your duty to do, you are a Seabee.
I wasn't happy one bit, I begged you to stay.
How could you go and leave me this way?
But off you went, it didn't matter what I said.
So I lay here alone as I cry in our bed.
 

The months go by slowly at first.
Then sped up with time.
Waiting for your calls is the worst.
I make myself so pretty, so I'm always in my prime
I tell you about work, about business so casual.
I tell you about the kids, where every day is unusual.
Our babies are growing.
Our sons are rambunctious and our daughter is glowing.
I still hold them at night, their tears are still flowing.
"When is Daddy coming back?" They think I'm all knowing.
I tell them I'm not sure. Daddy has work to do.
Daddy's job is important, it takes care of me and you.
Then the call came, the one we all dread.
My Seabee is gone, no that cant be what he said!

The sailors in their blues salute as we walk by.
I have to be strong, for them I cannot cry.
The give our son the flag, he doesn't understand.
What happened to his dad, this didn't go as planned.
His eyes began to tear as the shots rang out so clear.
Then they covered you with dirt.
I couldnt watch because it hurt.
Our daughter began to scream, "Daddy please don't leave"
Being the best big brothers, they had to help her grieve.
The rain began to fall, the sky was crying with us too.
Or maybe the tears that were falling were actually from you.
We held each other tight, for nothing about this was right.
Nothing about this was fair, all we have left is dispair.
The darkness surrounds us, huddled next to your grave.

I shoot up straight in bed. 
I reach over and touch your head.
It was all just a dream.
No matter how real it seemed.
My worlds biggest fear.
Is you no longer being here.
But so soundly you sleep.
And the boys don't make a peep.
Oh how I wish you could have seen her.
Beauty beyond words.
But it was all just a dream.
No not one bit was real.
So I lay my head back down.
And let the darkness go around.