MY BOOK IS PRINTED....A NEW JOURNEY BEGINS.... :) THANK YOU ANGELS....

Hello angels, It's done!!  The last 30 years of my life is printed...three hundred pages.....YIPPEEEE..........I never thought I'd live to see this day....and lol  all I can do is cry....lol 

OMG....to say that this journey has been the longest walk through feelings, emotions and looking back on the madness.... like I've never known, or want to know again.... 

Angels,  I figured out that the emotional upheaval I've been feeling these last few weeks comes from editing my book...I have been looking at this now for the last 30 days straight....having to face the madness of the last 30 years everyday........re-reading the poems of the losses....the destruction and sorrow....the hole I never thought I'd live to get out of .....but I did....and I'm alive...and that is what counts...... And nobody will ever harm me again....and I can only hope, my expeience...my journey will lessen and stop the harm that comes to others.....  

I dedicate my book to the children I never got to carry to full term, the family I lost and the friends I never got to keep......and it was in the losses that I found God....or maybe he found me.....and he replaced those losses with poetry.....  

I never wrote prior to my accident in 1985....  Suffice to say that  when I was in an orphanage at thirteen, I loved listening to music, and wrote all the music I would listen to on paper in a binder that I gave away when I left at seventeen..........lol....maybe that was just the beginning.....

I gave up writing when one of the staff members of the orphanage found money sticking out of my diary (we weren't allowed to have money).....and she didn't just take out the money, and dole out punishment.....she gave it to the administrator....and she opened my diary and held a meeting....and before 38 other girls and boys that shared this place with me.....as well as the staff and teachers.....she read my diary out to the world....everything I thought, dreamed or hoped, and all the ugly in-betweens.........while I prayed the ground would open up and swallow me whole......Suffice to say, I didn't write anymore.......

I only hope one day to be out and get my life back.....To think, I've lived for 52 years...and hardly got out long enough for a memory to grow.... to sustain me....and comfort me when I need it ...... Lord, lead me out of this isolation......  I can  only say that now my writing is what keeps me alive.....keeps my perspective strong....and guides me toward my dreams.....where I can help others get out of the darkness.....showing them there is hope.....

Thank you angels....for being in my world....Maybe one day I can get you all together and give you all a big hug....You have brought me comfort, and so much more....and I will be forever grateful.... 

Love and hugs....Giggles the Poet...  My walk through medical madness is over....and a new journey begins.....   Giggles the Poet starts another journey ;)  Thank you all.....for your support and guidance...for reaching out....and giving me a reason each day....  :)

God named my book "GIVE ME A SECOND-WALK-MY WALK THROUGH MEDICAL MADNESS"  And it will finally be published in 2016...what a great way to start the New Year.  :)  With the promise of a new adventure....

I believe that "a second" is all we can give another, because in that second...you could help change a life....   Be good to one another angels, and in in the next life, you won't have to make up for the mistakes, patterns or problems, we see in the world today....  Smile, and that smile will change someone's life....No matter what the problems, challenges you face, always know that these too will pass...and God will always be beside you...

Love and hugs...

Have a great life journey my angels..... 

Giggles the Poet