Thoughts In My Head

Can we cuddle? In just our underwear, so our skin can touch. Can I hold you while you wrap your arms around me? I'll run my fingers through your hair and drag my fingernails across your skin. You'll peck at my neck and tickle me while I giggle and tell you to stop. We could whisper cute things to each other under the covers so no one else can hear. So let's cuddle and stay in bed forever so we can protect each other, okay?I once had hope for the relationship I am in right now..
But now I'm having thoughts.
He's perfect and amazing, and I want him in my life forever,
But it's long distance, I never see him, and god only knows when I'll actually get to feel his touch.
I honestly don't know what to do..or what to say…or how to feel.
I'm lost…in a crowd…
I feel like I'm suffocating in the middle of the road and no one can see me dying.
Can someone reach out and grab me? Please..?