Bleak

These 4 walls know me too well 
They crumble when I crawl 
They crack when I fall
They blacken when I push 
Lighten when I pull
My mind has a tendency to poison me 
Throws out thoughts that get me angry 
Hands me fakes and edits of what I can only see
Try my hardest to prove I can be good for you 
Only to fail when my tongue attacks you so viciously
Feel it in my veins, it takes over me
Wanna destroy what is good infront of me
Can’t imagine getting old, somethings already died in me
Fuck you, fuck the future and fuck therapy 
I feel sick, the words are true, I can’t run you see
Cause this depression lives inside the darkest corners of me