A deeper beauty...

Again I find, I'm talking to myself 
Again I find, I'm losing my breath 
I only show enough to stop me weeping 
I have enormous beauty and depth 
Again I'm back in my bedroom like 1998
Again I'm self indulging my body of hate 
I only wrote about what I was dreaming 
The deeper you go, the greater my wealth
Again the pen takes to every sincere page
Again my imagination takes away the pain
I only float effortlessly when on my own
I invite you to swim, then you won't forget 
See the beauty in deep ocean's 
I am blue crystal with emotion
I invite you to see my vibrant wonders 
Not the sea bed, but under the covers