A Letter To The Past

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I write this letter,  

A burden to release,  

Years of silence,  

A heart seeking peace.

 

I never knew your story,  

Too painful to share,  

Hidden guilt, shame,  

A weight you couldn’t bear.

 

I didn’t grow with you,  

I don’t fully understand,  

But I adored you once,  

In the days when I was young.

 

I wore your name with pride,  

Even when the world couldn’t see,  

The blood we shared,  

Ran deep inside of me.

 

I didn’t ask to be born,  

Nor for the name I wear,  

A child with no choice,  

A heart filled with despair.

 

I’ve felt the bitterness,  

The love that never came,  

A disgrace in your eyes,  

Just a child with no name.

 

I fought for you,  

When the world threw stones,  

I defended your honor,  

Though I stood alone.

 

I didn’t ask to be blamed,  

For the pain you couldn’t face,  

To suffer at the hands  

Of those who should’ve kept me safe.

 

You favored them,  

Darlene and the rest,  

What was I to you?  

A name you couldn’t bless.

 

I know you’ve suffered too,  

But so have I,  

Losing both my parents,  

Left to question why.

 

You said blood is thicker,  

But that truth felt wrong,  

Strangers became my family,  

And loved me all along.

 

I’ve forgiven you,  

Though the scars remain,  

I loved you once,  

But now, it’s not the same.

 

My siblings, they’ve grown,  

So fast, so strong,  

They know what they want,  

They’ve found where they belong.

 

Shonaan found his way,  

A journey far from home,  

And now he stands beside me,  

No longer left alone.

 

Alex, still a brat,  

But he’s learning to adapt,  

Gordon works, aims high,  

And Monalisa is on track.

 

Jay’s in his final years,  

Chasing dreams of his own,  

I’ve written my story,  

And soon, it’ll be known.

 

My son, so kind,  

So full of care,  

He looks just like Jay,  

A future bright and fair.

 

If you pass away,  

Don’t think we’ll be there,  

For you’ve cast us aside,  

And never showed you cared.

 

You might say I betrayed,  

But I never called her my sister,  

You blamed me for the past,  

And it made me feel bitter.

 

You all turned your backs,  

As I carried the weight,  

Made me believe I should’ve died,  

Instead of bearing this fate.

 

But know this, Valerie,  

As I stand here today,  

I took responsibility,  

For my healing, my way.

 

I never betrayed,  

I never broke trust,  

It was you and the others,  

Who left me in the dust.

 

I’m still here, standing strong,  

And though the past is long gone,  

I carry the lessons learned,  

And the strength I’ve earned.

But at the end I wish you a long life, until we meet again.

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