A Letter To Shinay

I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHERE TO START...
BUT I CAN CONFIDENTLY SAY YOU HAVE MY HEART...
WHEN YOU REAPPEARED IN MY LIFE I WAS YOUNG AND LOST...
NOT KNOWING MY IMMATURITY OF EMOTIONS WOULD HAVE A GREAT COST...
I HAVE TO LIVE WITH THOSE ERRORS EVERYDAY...
POSSIBLY KNOWING I FOREVER PUSHED YOU AWAY...
I PRAY TO GOD EVERY NIGHT TO FIX MY MISTAKES...
TO HOPEFULLY PLACE YOU BACK IN MY PATH SO OUR LOVE COULD BE FATE...
I WILL NEVER LET THE POSSIBILITIES OF US SLIP AWAY...
THE ONLY THING IN LIFE I HAVE LEFT CONCERNING US IS FAITH...
PLEASE KNOW THAT MY INTENTIONS WERE FOR YOU TO BE MY FUTURE...
BUT MY PAST HAD A GRIP ON MY EMOTIONS MAKING IT HARD FOR ME TO REDUCE HER...
I'M NOT ASKING YOU TO ACCEPT MY EXCUSE...
I'M ASKING YOU TO UNDERSTAND MY VIEW...
I WAS GOING THROUGH AN EMOTIONAL TUG-A-WAR...
AND IT WAS YOU WHO I WAS PULLING TOWARDS...
I CAN'T THINK OF A NIGHT THAT I SLEPT THROUGH...
WHERE I FELL ASLEEP NOT THINKING OF YOU...
BEING AWAY FROM SOCIETY HELPED ME GROW... 
HELPED ME UNDERSTAND LIFE AND WHAT I NEED THE MOST...
I WISH I COULD TURN BACK THE HANDS OF TIME...
AND CHERISH A FUTURE WHERE YOU ARE ALL MINES...
HEARING OF YOUR ENGAGEMENT PAINS ME...
BUT KNOWING THAT YOU ARE HAPPY SUSTAINS ME...
I WANT TO SAY CONGRATS TO YOU AND YOURS...
ONLY WANTING A LIFETIME OF LOVE FOR YOU TO ENDURE...
LIVING THE REST OF MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU WILL BE HARD...
PLEASE KNOW THERE IS A PLACE FOR YOU FOREVER IN MY HEART...