A light in the dark

Once, it boiled.
It just had to come out and it did.
It came out violently, yet slowly.
I did not see it coming.
I felt it through my brain like a spin, a whirl, a storm, a tempest.
Once, it was here.
Buried in me but who could help me?
Then, there was nothing I could feel.
I was empty.
You helped me through it.
Some did not believe me but you were there.
I know it was not easy.
I know I made you cry.
I know you cried with me.
Eventhough we never do this.
I found out it will never be the same as it was before all this.
Is it what being an adult feels like?
No one had told me it was brutal.
As I always say, I was born nervous.
That's how I know you understand, because you and me are the same.
You gave me life and then, you gave me light.
- Sam Caie Berry