A Lover’s Blood

When I woke

I was swimming in a pool of my own blood,

unbothered I fill my mouth and spit it out like a fountain. 
it’s hard being enlightened 
suck my soul through a siphon 
he only want her when she’s on the light end 
warm and metallic 
just dive in
when I’m manic skating the streets 
know I’m stylin’
he said I cut too deep and am always wildin’
he was an artist stuck shoveling concrete 
committing crimes, robbing you blind to make ends meet
i held your hand in the inferno
i  carried your sin and it burned me so 
you called your grandma, “I found me a good girl.”
does a good girl love a man who pulled the trigger? 
does a good girl love a man who cheats and steals? 
does a good girl love a man who loves his pills?
your blood was dripping everywhere 
i swam so deep in you I’d barely come up for air 
lost my sanity trying to protect a criminal, he don’t even care
we needed to burn those sheets 
i was unaware 
so I took off to Louisiana 
it was there that my burdens were easier to bear 
NoLaws and a schizophrenic angel team, jazz music, Vienna sausage, street art 
made the day gleam 
flash forward a year 
i think I’m starting to see the grand scheme 
had to break me to make me 
i let you carve a light house into my skin 
so just to fucking clarify 
the next time I trust I’ll verify 
you said you needed me 
so I made the trip 
i only got whiplash when I took the hit 
a semi truck collision had me thinking I’d met my end 
thought I’d die and I couldn’t cry
couldn’t even pretend 
but times gone by 
don’t ask me why you’re apart of my story now 
i fled our house 
i stormed the desert 
i scraped my knees 
i bruised my elbows 
i swam in your hell before I found mine 
God knows 
sometimes I wish you could see 
how I made it out and I did it for me 
now they say I glow 
sometimes I wish you could see