A mothers love.

You took me from my boys,
With all your sneaky ploys. 
You took me from my family
Blinded by you I could not see.
But who was it that paid the fee?
I always thought it was just me. 
But it was my loved ones,
My three precious sons. 
You made me walk away,
A tangled web I did so weave. 
Mommy why did you leave?
What could I possibly say?
I can't make them understand
Something that was never in my plan. 
You turned me into someone I can't stand.
From my own mothers home I was banned. 
You took me and made me your biggest fan.
You turned me into someone I hate. 
I walked away from them 
Myself I will eternally Condem
I don't think I will ever mend 
Will my desire for you ever end?
You turned me into a person people mistrust ...even disgust. 
I know what they think,
With their judging, watchful eyes I sink.
They are right with every thought.
With every criticising remark 
The person I once was left in the dark.
With every urge, in you I purged 
Through my veins you surged
 the ultimate pleasure 
caused a pain I cannot measure 
My children should be a gift I  treasure.
On my children I bailed,
away i sailed, deep down I knew I had failed.
From jail, heart felt letters I mailed,
Filled with broken promises,empty words, and meaningless text, all sealed with a toxic kiss. 
They know that with mommy it's hit or miss.
 She's was on an artificial bliss 
They know I'm not the same 
They think I'm no longer sane 
They know heroins to blame 
Now it's up to mommy to put out the flame.
As long as I contain the inner fire.
I'll soon be someone my children admire.
No longer a thief or a liar,
Soon I'll be the mother they require thier love is now my only desire 
my haters will frown,
 I won't let it bring me down. 
 it is I that determines my ending.
My heart and soul I am defending 
No more will I wait,
Only I can determine my fate 
Starting with a clean slate.
A brand new year,
I will finally see clear.
The mother in me has won.
goodbye heroin,
No longer will you win.
I'm Pulling the plug, 
I won't miss your ugly mug 
The addict eternally inside 
With you, I will no longer side.
 from now on I put my family first.
I refuse to give in to my thirst.
Deep inside I'm burying you.
After all, I have been a mommy longer.
And a mother's love is always stronger!