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A Triggered Split Mind

Empty with a heavy heart and distant mind, at night my mind comes alive, 3AM to be precise filled with chaotic, hectic, dark and twisted thoughts; tears start to stream while my body starts to collapse.

I fall to the ground, yelling, screaming, begging for this life of mine to end. My chest aches while my heart pounds and beats in pain; another war in having to face out on this battlefield, grasping for breath.ย 

Tryinf to beat BPD is becoming a losing game, Iโ€™ve lost all Iโ€™ve known and who I am; to this disorder thatโ€™s changed me for the worst. A better person Iโ€™m trying to be but itโ€™s mission impossible and Iโ€™m done competing.

The scars and bruises are on my heart and in my mind; meanwhile the only sign you see is I donโ€™t want to be alive. The feelings Iโ€™m feeling are more than sadness itโ€™s this disorders invisible abuse.

Abuse is all Iโ€™ve ever known but peace is all I want and itโ€™s all Iโ€™m fighting for. How is it fair someone as precious as me gets a trauma diagnosisโ€™s; itโ€™s the price of others actions, neglect and abuse is what it cost me.

Its very strange how someone as nice as me can be so dark and twisted when the devil comes to play with me.

Punish myself for hurting my loved ones by slicing my wrists and thighs to release the guilt and shame inside; self sabotage and pushing people away to the side, is not what I want to do, nor itโ€™s who I am.

Its just the evil mastermind and itโ€™s just the life of;ย 

A triggered split mind.

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