A Truth Exposed

It’s humiliating being in the body of a child

I don’t have the words to speak

the hands to grasp

the limbs to reach

At 2am I chirped, my blanket tightening
At 2:10 I squealed, my blanket falling
At 3am I cried, my stomach grumbling
At 4am I screamed from a nightmare
At 4:30 I sulked, really needed a hug
At 6am I whined with the intrusion of sunlight

It’s humiliating being in the body that has aged

I don’t have the joints to sustain

the speed to produce

the sharpest brain

On Sunday I forgot the words to a hymn
On Monday I lost my bifocals
On Tuesday I had to hand in my license
On Wednesday I was given a walking frame
On Thursday none of my children picked up the phone
On Friday they took out the last of my teeth

It’s humiliating being in the body of a woman

I don’t have the discretion of hiding my breasts

the absolve from blood

the  privilege of neglect

24 years ago, I was date raped
23 years ago, I had a miscarriage
20 years ago, I gave birth
10 years ago, we lost the house
2 years ago I became a grandmother
1 year ago I became alone

Its humiliating being in the body of Mankind

I don’t have the freedom to change my Mind

the fickleness to act arbitrarily

the density to stay dead

In the beginning I was prepared a dwelling
I moulded a paradise and shared my life
Then that life multiplied in freedom
I couldn’t bring it back
So I planned a way to enter and steer its course
I clothed myself in flesh
Then I shared my spirit

They still don’t hear
I am shepherding them to the Father
But like blind sheep and donkeys
They don’t see or understand
This is the most stubborn body ever
But I will pull it all together very soon