About Me

About 40 years has passed and I still don't know
I thought for sure it would be something I could out grow
Let me start from the time I can remember
I know it started sometime in September
Or atleast, that's what they say
I'm talking about what I think is my birthday
I mean as babies, do we really know who our parents are
We are given life and put in a car
We’re given two people that love us dearly
And we celebrate with them yearly
But who are these two and who am I
At this age, all I do is sleep and cry
As I get older and start to learn
Walking, talking, and experience, I earn
I'm being loved and care for daily
And I think I'm getting everything I need to be
But as I become my own person and start to understand
I notice I have nothing in common with this woman and man
It's strange because they are all I know
They are not just your average Jane and Joe
Something just isn't right and I'm confused
What has happened? Have I been abused?
Then one day the “talk” comes
It would finally reveal why I have become
Become the person I am today
This is the story they had to say
You've been adopted and your birth mother couldn't keep you
I don't know whether to be happy or blue
I'm stunned! How do I take this?
I mean y'all are the ones I hug and kiss
What does all this mean
I can't handle this, I'm just becoming a teen
So I put it aside and continue to live
But now I wonder, who my heart to give
Do I search for the life I don't know
Will it bring me more friends or foe
I choose to avoid it for many more years
But all it's done is cause more fears
I wanna know who I'm really like
I wanna know why I don't really enjoy to fish or hike
Where do my looks really come from
Do I have all your traits or just some
It's really weighing down on me
I can't stop the curiosity
The answers would never arrive
Because the people involved are no longer alive
So I'm left to wonder at what may be
Who I am and who's the real me
I could say I am what I made myself
But I'm as blank as an empty shelf
I know there are things that make me do the things I do
Oh how I wish I only knew
I've learn to accept my day to day
I'm happy to learn God is the only way