Absent moments

Christmas is near, Thanksgiving just passed
But these feelings on the holidays, I know they won't last
This one is different because you are no longer here
But it's not just the special days that I fear
For each holiday, I prepare my heart in advance
I know to hear your loud voice there is no chance
I'm more scared of those absent moments, when briefly I forget
That never again will your "I love you" to me be sent
Those very rare seconds when I start to call you and share
Something special or funny because I wanted you there
Those are the times that knock me off my feet
When I lose you all over and the pain cuts deep
The time is approaching when others will start to move on
They will tell us to "let go" and accept that you are gone
But your death has forever changed us, so the pain we embrace
For if we let go of the hurt, there is only emptiness in its place