Afraid

What makes me different
How can I relate
How can you love a person filled with hate?
Took me in your heart 
Locked me there with a key
I have so much chaos inside 
How can you Pursue in me?
It takes time to heal 
Takes time to feel
But even though I doubt a lot 
I know it's real
And I'm afraid to speak of the future 
But I'm afraid to be in the past
And knowing that you love me to that extent tells me that you want to last 
I still look at you knowing that I'm in love 
You know they say loves a drug 
But it Feels more than that
Like something from above 
And as time goes on 
I'll learn to let go
All the things that I can't control
Cuz I'm used to being confused 
I'm used to being unsure 
I'm used to all the sweet nothings I endured
But being afraid 
And pushing away
Can only hurt me from the one who's willing to Stay