All Dawn's Colours

I think maybe
you would understand
if I told you that
my eyes can barely open
these days
​​​the blacks and whites
too drowsy
the dawn colours
too lousy
To contemplate

that all the dawns are shamed
by me
embarrassed by the fall of me
so that colours never stay with
me
these days

that my eyes seem barely
open
all the lids half closed and
broken
the blacks and whites
too drowsy
all the coloured dawns 
too lousy
To contemplate

M P 21/9/21