Begin again

You have held me in your grips for 30 years or more

Made me love you, You took my breath away

Depend on you

Need you

Turn to you in times of crisis

 and in times of joy

You made me believe you were my friend

Slowly killing me, draining life from my viens

I tried to say goodbye

Addicted, starved for the taste of you, I always went back, you held me in your grip

This relationship with you has cost me in so many ways, stole my pride, ashamed with no where to hide.

Wringing my hands i cried out in the night, just one more time i need to hold you, taste you, breath you deep into my lungs

My life with you is draining away

My children look at me and wonder why, why would I want you, and not think of them. 

I promise i will try and begin again.

I have had enough of your control

Enough of this shame

I am taking back my life, I will begin again

You have held me in your control for the last time

I am walking away from you, this is the last goodbye

Crushing you in my hand feels so good,

Goodbye ciggerettes. 

I will begin again.