Behind My Borderline Eyes

I just feel so broken,

So damaged,

What went wrong with me?

In my head I am a huge mess

but I try to not show it…

unfortunately the cracks show,

it usually starts out good but than

the feel of abandonment

and rejection sets in,

something in me changes,

like a switch and I am out for blood,

crazy impulses to just feel,

to feel something,

reckless pain management

sex is key

but it also is what tears apart

people,

lust,

passion,

madness,

that is all that I crave but

I hate at the same time

please

leave me alone,

please

don’t go,

a battlefield goes down in my

mind,

the hurt in your eyes are to much

for me to handle,

that the monster in me won,

you say drop it

and I try,

but the last words I say to you

is that I am sorry,

a kiss before I go,

it’s all in the air right now,

and the lack of the unknown drives me

crazy,

suicidal,

please don’t leave me I pray,

but it’s okay if you can’t handle me,

I can’t handle myself either