BOOM!!!!!

Its getting to the point its defeating me,
The outcome of my thoughts and feelings I need to see.
Why I was chosen is still blurry and unclear,
Which is ironic because its the unkown I truly fear.
I don't know what is fake nowadays or what is real,
Every emotion imaginable I have had to feel.
God knows who chose me or if I was even chosen,
I am thinking too much of it now which has left my mind frozen.
Where I go now i dont know or even who I can turn to,
Because its got that bad I don't know who is loyal or true.
I am just hoping and praying it will all fall into place,
And I can say to my haters "haha in your face".
I made it myself through confused times and hard,
Some moments where funny some where happy and sad.
Atleast when it al l ends and plays itself  out,
Me and my children will be happy and we can scream and shout.