The Breathe You Could Have Spared

"The Breathe That You Could Have Spared"

You Take another breath that you could've spared
For all those that you take away from me!
You sleep another minute without a care,
For all the ones you've taken from me
Nothing can set me free…

In my delusional state of drowsiness
I lay in the grass looking at the stars alone…
We used to lay together and get real close and whisper promises
Of stories of when we grow old

People say they know that love is,
But there was nothing that compared to this
Without you nothing can be fixed!
Oh how I wish we could have one last kiss…

You took a piece of me the day you walked away
Without you joy bliss does not exist
I try to put a smile on like everything’s okay
But without you nothing can be fixed…

I know once you were gone there was no turning back
I know once you were gone nothing would be the same
I Know I’ll; never forget you and with that promise I’ll never slack
I know it wasn't my fault that you left … but when its all said and done

I will always blame me...Its always me… and will always be me
If I had never let you go…
If I was in it for better or worse
When you said you needed time I should have said NO!
Maybe just maybe I wouldn’t have had to see you get swept away in death’s course,
And riding in his wretched black hearse!
Living without is my curse

They say it wasn't my fault.. it was his
But living without you is my curse
They said he was a drunken mess…
Ive made a lot of decisions but YOU were my BEST!
You were my everything and nothing less
You were my best friend, you made me strong
And they try to tell me that I should meet someone new
But out of seven billion we were the best two…

I try to tell myself that if you hadn't over reacted…
All I know is I feel dead inside when you’re subtracted
You left me or was it me..?
But no I was the one didn't beg on my knees!
Why didn't I beg on my knees!!!

I ask myself why it was you and not me…
Because everybody knew you were the best half of me…
Oh how I wish you were right here next to me,
We could watch the stars together and I could hear you beautiful laugh

I miss the sound of you comforting voice
I always wonder what you are doing up there
I’d be there with you if I had a choice
But our little one needs me here

He barely knew you but, he asks where you went from time to time
He is smart, He notices grown ups come in pairs of two
At Least the lucky ones do…

I haven't had the strength to tell him yet
But He knows a part of him is missing
I cant tell him because he needs someone…
Someone strong enough to wipe his tears away
But I would break down and weep too…

You'd be strong enough I bet…

I love to think we spend our lives dying…
Because once we die we’ll spend eternity with you…
We are down how here waiting for the right timing
Just know that we miss you,
Me and your little man too…
Know that throughout the pain I’m doing my best as a dad

Well I’ll let you go Babe we hope to see you soon
And know that we both miss you very much
And that we love you,
And we know you love us too...