Breathless

I feel like I'm unable to love

I feel like I'm unable to give another human being all of me without my heart feeling a tug

Come touch me, not sexually, mentally let your words caress me while your stress neglects me

I hope they subject me to a sentencing reaching above, what I expect

I hate wondering

I hate hoping

I hate trying figure out what another person needs, craft me in the light of perfection, while my soul feigns

Listen to these things

I hate love

I hate the soft, sticky kisses that cover how you really feel, they smother me

I hate us, the feeling you think it is, what was

I hate the suffocation after every damn conversation if I get compensation for the times I slowly cried

My pockets would bulge

I need you

Go away

I want you

Stay far away

Engulf me in a crowded hug

Party for 3, because misery is a company

My heart bleeds red, but this pen bleeds blue

I receive you

Let your words attach to me while reality smacks me, wait don't grab me

I feel like I'm unable to care

Stab me with a spear, these relations need to ship because this anguish I can't bare

How dare....you

On this paper the feelings I perceive beat true

These words I spit climb one another to formulate you

I've risen, like the heaves in my chest nights I've digested my rage

Nights I've replied the nights you gave in

You let the power in his fists shift your mental mindset, you let the grasp of his sharp tongue slice you

Save me

Little Autumn is big Nichole', a strong alter ego I found long ago to help me bare the pain

I shift my weight but the world is heavy

Dry tears crack my swollen face, your warm embrace is fake

I hate you!!!

I love you!!!

I adore you!!!

I rapidly detach me to collapse onto black sheets, I died the day I cam home to cracked teeth

My smile has broken

My fear subsided

I feel like I'm unable to breathe