BROKEN

When I was lost and all alone,

And I was so afraid...

The thought of getting out of bed,

Cut through me like a blade!

I didn't want to face the world,

Too scared that all would see...

How broken that I really was,

Or how weak I came to be.

No longer was it me I saw,

When I looked into the mirror...

Shame and guilt and such disgust,

But not a single tear.

Numb,yet still so full of pain,

I kept my whiskey next to me...

It was my only real escape,

From my reality.

The things I've done and can't take back,

Haunt me every single day...

The guilt and rage built up inside,

Will NEVER go away!

I can't fight against my tortured thoughts,

The hurt and all the shame...

I beat myself up everyday,

And kill myself with blame.

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