Broken

Gently, I think I’m gonna break
These thoughts are too much for me to take
A black fucking mess this has become 
After a while the pills kick in and I’m incredibly numb 
I’m splitting again 
And lately I think it’s getting worse 
You try so hard to help but nothing fucking works
The anger that I feel inside of me 
Just push you away and that I can guarantee 
Oh god when will this end 
I wish I 
Could go back in time 
Turn the other way and surely I’d be fine 
But silly me I ended up this road 
Seem to lose it when I have no control 
And watch out 
You’re dancing with the devil
You took the risk and now what you’ve seen is several
Different versions of me 
The good, the bad and the ugliness that breeds inside of me 
It’s happening again 
Smoke till I choke, toss and turn at night 
Place me up high, I ain’t afraid of heights 
I’ll just imagine the fall
But here I am cause I’m too scared to end it all
Oh god when will this end