brother of mine

~~i don't even know where to start
 the feelings I have for you are close to my heart
 you are gone but not to me
 I talk to you all the time wish everyone could see

so much I want to say to you that I never had the chance
 I you never even got to go to my wedding dance
 I have a pic of you with your nephew
 its weird how he kind of remembers you

I wish things happened a different way
 but god took you it wasn't your time to stay
 I dream about you every night
 most of the time I wake up in a fright

i hate the way we didn't say goodbye
 not a day goes by i didn't wish i was the one that died
 you had so much more to offer than i ever had
 so many people were upset so many were sad

if i could take back all i did not do
 i would take it all back for one more day with you
 i miss you so bad no one knows
 but here i am where all my feelings show

everyone knows what this did to me
 its hard to hide its for everyone to see
 i know everyone hurts from your death
 but for me its different it took my breath

i wake up nightly dreaming of you
 shaking and wishing there was something i could do
 mom and dad miss you more than you could imagine
 we all hurt more than anyone can fathom

but for now i will let you go
 this isn't goodbye so you know
 i will see you soon lil brother of mine
 till we see each other again no one left behind

LOVE YOU TOMMY