Can Someone please Help?

Can Someone please help me,
my burdens are too strong,
I thought I could pull it together all on my own..
I tried to fight all day,& night..
I cried for anyone to hear my plea,but all I felt was abandoned,oh Lord,why me?
I threw my tantrums,& acted out as a child, I was carrying too much anger inside,it was hard to let go of my anger,& my selfish pride....
I could never forgive the sins I committed,& all the mistakes I made,but Jesus sat me down and whispered forgive yourself,for that was the past,for I threw your sins away...
I never gave you more than you could handle, I gave you exactly what you needed to see, that even when you turned me away,I gave you the strength to get back up,so that one day you will be a living testimony for me...
I never wanted you to be on drugs,a liar,or a thief...
I showed you with all that mess,you could still lean on me...
​​​​​I carried you home, when you lost your way,& I listened to you,as you cried,& poured your soul out that day...
Dear Lord,how can this be, I never thought I would be this type of Woman,have thou forsaken me? I was worried,because I was trying to pray, I was down on my knees,tears streaming down like a river....
I could not even remember the Lord's prayer, I pleaded him to answer me...
But it took a while to get my memory back,& who else but Jesus could ever do that?
I am grateful,& happy to share with you my story..
But I am only here,by God's goodness grace,& his loving mercy...
Wrote by Katherine N Hutchins,August the 7th,2018
In Jesus name amen....